It feels like I have a single aspect left to transcend. Aligned with physical body sight and reality.
Having removed all the illusions I am left in shock and disillusionment of them gone.
Hence the empty, darkness. Unsure what to do. Unsure what/how/why.
This explains my uncertainty and fear at the sudden change, thought it is a change I accept. I understand my reaction and give myself the time to adjust and process. Yes ‘barren’ I feel that, the lack, scarcity! Though it is temporary whilst I adjust. ‘Calibration. Acceptance’.
I have been denying for a while until recently. To accept it, I am feeling now, is to accept that which is gone. Hence the resistance. Well, I accept it is gone. I let it go through my own actions and more importantly, MY OWN FREE CHOICE and WILL!
I choose this.
Wanted this, so why hold on to something I decided I didnt want anymore? Ys, it maybe precious, loved yet I choose to move on. I take that love with me even though I let them go. They helped me to get this point. That is what they were for, their part is over.
So with gratitude and love, I carry with me I let them go. To not let them go is to hold them back from their purpose and meaning. So they are gone.
Time to accept it, I accept they are already gone, I was just refusing to accept it as I thought it would make it true. That that is the illusion.
They are already gone and I fully accept that and my current state without them. I don’t need them anymore, I have outgrown and moved on.
Grieving and accepting they are gone is what is best for me now, also accepting how and why I am without them. ‘Who’ I am without them. Accepting the fact that without them, I am still here. The lack, scarcity is simply all I have removed from myself, I get that now.
I thought I was meant to get it back, but I was wrong. It is what I choose to lose, I accept they are gone and let go of their loss and trying to re-find/gain them.
I just felt like a circle was completed, like a wheel made whole inside!
So letting go of my need of what was lost, I wait to become aware and accept what IS now.
Even that barren lack, it shows that I have indeed dropped illusions and stories.
No more focusing on what is not there, what is gone.
Acceptance they are gone and moving on without them.
Right no more mentions!
Written by Conscious Libre
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