Journal Posts
My own personal exploration of consciousness, spirituality and topics therein.
Maze of Forgetfulness
I think that is what has happened. More than sure. I can see it in my mind's eye now, tunnels like underground, a single torch. Forgotten everything, lost and wandering aimlessly. I have…
Writing to Let Go of What was Let Go.
I have been denying for a while until recently. To accept it, I am feeling now, is to accept that which is gone. Hence the resistance. Well, I accept it is gone. I…
Fear From the Fall
I think I have lost my faith, in my own ability to be truly happy. Deep down happiness. The possibility to even find such a thing, that it can be had whilst living…
8 March 2016
Question for myself now is 'What to do about this empty world?' What is my next step? What is it that perceives that emptiness? Lack of what? Lack in the world or myself?…
The Price of the False Self
I went quiet for a while as things stirred within me, then I became agitated, upset then angry. This allowed that one thought that did it all for me: 'I am sick of…
A Brief Experience of Stepping into the Now
Who stepped into this now exactly? If I did, then was I not already here? It is a sensation, a feeling of presence, stepping into yourself. Odd, but not a bad feeling. It…
The I No Longer Exists
I am aware of what I perceive. Though that includes such as emotion and thought as part of the reality. I have been in other realities that have thought and emotion also though.…
Withdrawing Physical Reality Tethers
Realised last night that my insecurity was simply due to the fact I had realised and removed the basis and stable foundation to which I saw as a root of myself and life.…
Becoming the Rainbow
Its dawning on me how I separate 'here' (the physical), the astral and what I consider 'spiritual' occurrences and the process of ascension. I seem to keep looking 'here' for the results of…
Higher Self, Self, I, Human. Letting go Ownership of Ascension
Me, myself and I. I feel that state and energy around me today. The shuffling of being uncomfortable suddenly and needing to slightly re-adjust something. Like too tight jeans that are pinching.
