A Word to the We

So a message about this: Have FAITH, belief, trust, what seems to be lacking, out in the cold, destitute, there will be a harvest of everything you appear to be lacking, it is protected, it is truth, it is law, what was twisting this was that we didnt realise we BOTH have this, its the SAME issue and together we can solve this… reminds me of my dream of going through all those places to try to get to town and finding out he had to go through it all to…

Its not just me, its not just you WE have been going through this, just seeing it all as being personal to us, our own hell, when its not, its a forest we are both trying to find our way through together. We may not be physical together or even knowing each other right now… but we are STILL Secret Life Partners, even if that secret to from ourselves, we are still sharing this lifes ups and down and going through them together 🙂 So lets work on them together 🙂

The past, the idea that it was just us alone, not connected, the pain and loneliness.. this proves that we were never really going through it alone, we just were not aware. When one of us has a victory, its a victory for both as these things are shared, not just the victory but the issues. Truly a ‘shared life’ in many ways and meanings of those words. I know its hard to grasp that idea. Without any type of evidence that the other is also. I have that to. It does make me feel… what is this.. the want to bow my head, feel isolated, alone, no one to help or work with, to feel ‘what is the point’ why try. That there is nothing at the end that is worth going through all this for. That what I hoped was there, wasnt, or might not be. Yes that is what is giving space for this hole where all these doubts and such are. The fact that its just individual, to you or me. That the shared and connectedness isnt there anymore. Especially whilst we are at distance and dont know each other seems to make that space between us even further apart.

Makes us feel even more isolated. Yet even in that supposed isolation from each other…we are Still going through the same things, feeling the same things, desiring the same things. Dreaming of the same things. Working towards the same things. We still both work towards that same dream, feeling, desire, even though we do not fully understand it.  That there shows we are still connected BY that very fact. We are still trying to work our way towards each other and we both still desire that.

The only shadow is in our own unawareness of each other. Of our own unawareness of the ways we are connected. That our energy is still connected, otherwise how could we be sharing this path to start with? This path that maybe the same, a circle that we started together, each went a different direction and even though we seem the furthest apart, the one path will soon lead us back face to face.

I know its hard to accept these things seemingly without anything to show for. Though I so want it to be true. Otherwise I feel like I am alone in this. Then.. what is the point? To go forth alone is against the point of the process. The whole process, dream is the opposite. So how could it turn out that way? That doesnt make sense,.. though there is a awareness of a ‘sods laws’ and expectation of the potential, based on the past or something inside that already believes something more strongly. To which this dream is in opposition to. What is this? This belief? It is truly stronger than us?  Upset, disappointment and belief in these things.  Expectation.. where does this come from? Is it even connected to any of this? Is this expectation of disappointment or is it already here due to something from the past? ‘I always knew’ ..  What part of us ‘always knew’ this would never happen… where does this come from? What happened to make us believe this was never true or going to be?  Is it simply the fact that nothing has ‘happened’ yet? Or is it because ones we have come across, so far, hasnt been us, so we started to give up and lose faith? Losing faith. What has eroded our faith, what can bring BACK our faith, trust.?

I think the expectation of disappointment is purely based on the unawareness of what already is and always been.

This showing that up till no, its all been a li, though that is a good thing, as the lie was that we were alone, when the truth is that we havent been. I would rather have the loneliness be a lie then the lie of there being someone… unless ofc you DIDNT want this..