I always thought that if I change, mentally, emotionally, physical through my inner work, then the outside life should change to. That is what I always read. What I have always heard from many, many people.
I realise now that this is WRONG. I should of known really, most of what I have come across online about spirituality has ultimately turned out to be garbage.
It doesn’t change with your inner work, to match your inner work, your mental, emotional state. It actually matches and mirrors your JOURNEY ITSELF.
Your Life Mirrors your Journey
For my example (and the realisation I had):
I have changed my inner state IMMENSELY over the last 5 years. I pulled myself out of deep depression, constant pain and anxiety. Negative self-belief, I actually thought I was the manifestation of fear, pain and suffering. Who wants to know that? So I better hide myself away. I was sure I would never have ‘a life’.
Now all that is transformed (within my limits of being Autistic/ADHD/PDA/RSD). Yet… I couldn’t understand why my life was the same as before. In 2023 I found myself mentally fit and ready to move on with my life! Bring on independence!
Yet, no matter how hard I tried to ‘move forward’.. it just isnt ‘working’. My first year plans, had barely begun by the start of the second year. Everything was STALL STALL STALL. Now, half way through the second year, I have only 1 of the 3 things I wanted to solve in the first to give me my much needed foundations in my life. None of it due to lack of effort on my part.
It hit me today that I was getting this thinking wrong:
1) Life should match my inner self state
2) What I was thinking it should be due to 1 is actually where I wanted to be in life (not where I was)
Your Life Mirrors your Journey. Having lost, pulled up my roots, removed things from myself etc. I am pretty much ‘contentless’, much of my inner content/context has been healed, purged, changed. I have emptied myself out. Following this I spent close to 25 years on my Journey and I have cleaned myself out to my bare bones (spiritually speaking). Ready for the big ‘Union’. When I can finally feel to the soul level ‘it is done, I can rest now and be at home’.
Thus, my life is mirroring where I am in my Journey. I have no house, no job, no social, no friends. No roots. I have lost and let go. My life is ‘bare bones’. Empty and ready for the ‘good stuff’.
Life IS the Journey.
Thus life situation = journey situation.
